Although there's rarely any reasonable excuse for the action and emotions in our dreams, I feel fairly certain that I wasn't trying to shoot myself in the head in order to kill myself. I shot myself with what looked like a short or sawed off shotgun (not like I know really - I have no gun knowledge whatsoever), and I saw my brain was essentially blown to pieces in a very cartoon-like fashion.
So the question is why. I know that dreams are irrational and often just a bit f***ed up, but it really makes you wonder when you do something as drastic as --I don't know-- attempted suicide?! It seemed as though I was trying to get away from something. In the "end", I didn't actually die. I did, however, suddenly have an excuse to be incompetent and forgetful. I remember thinking I didn't really feel a difference, but that I, then, had a reason for my lack of success in life.
Am I really so insecure with my ability to effectively work that I would rather excuse myself of a brain injury rather than face up to my difficulties to succeed?
And I know I feel fairly confident that this wasn't my mind telling me that I want to die, but should I be concerned? As someone who used to struggle with emotional stability, I do need to be very careful.
